I will miss her every day!

Katy and Neil

Faith is like electricity. You can’t see it, but you can see the light.

Whispering Souls
(by Terri Onorato)

I sometimes hear it late at night,
the gentle sound of angel flight,
descending from a higher place
closing gaps of time and space.

A gentle breeze upon my skin
pulls me from my dreams again;
a loving soul gone far too long
returns to reaffirm our bond.

My mind is racing, questions fly,
“You left so soon, please tell me why!”
the whispered words then spoke to me
released my pain and set me free.

“There is a place beyond this earth
where all souls seek divine rebirth,
no explanation can describe
the world in which pure love resides.

This place belongs to everyone
and when your time on earth is done
you’ll travel here as all souls do,
no fear or pain will follow you.

Until the day your journey starts
you’ll find me tucked inside your heart,
and when you feel our distance vast
your whispered words will bring me back.

This I promise you my friend,
we’ll be together once again
and all the love our hearts can hold
will join as one our whispering souls.”

The Silhouette
(by Terri Onorato)

The silhouette stands boldly
at the end of the hallway
ears erect, eyes like jewels
the tail, it softly sways.

This wouldn’t be the first time
I’ve seen her stand nearby
her image clear as crystal
from the corner of my eye.

Her visits I don’t share with some
who think I’ve went over and beyond
the grieving time they deem I need,
they say I should move on.

I sometimes pity people who
have never felt just cause
to share the bond between two souls,
one with hands and one with paws.

The silhouette reminds me
what the others say is wrong
for as long as breath goes through me
there exists our mighty bond.

When the Keeper calls me home
and the Bridge gates open wide
our bond will deepen ten fold
as we walk through side by side.

You see, I am the lucky one
as I’ve been truly blessed
for someday we’ll walk together
as eternal silhouettes.

We’ve been so close, we two, these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears

Sent: Saturday, July 30, 2011
Subject: Adalaide Marie – My Little Puppy Dog

Addy passed away yesterday, 7/29/11, with some help from her favorite Vet, Dr. Michelle Sandrock. She wouldn’t eat or drink anything and she could barely even stand. She hadn’t been feeling well but I wasn’t ready for such a turn for the worse. She was tired. She’s in a better place now. I will miss her every day. I loved her more than life. Here is a link to one of my favorite videos of Addy and Cam playing in the yard, about a year ago. This is how I remember my Addy. The one marked “Addy 1” is on our ride home when I first got her from you. Cutest thing I ever saw and she got cuter every single day. I loved Addy more than life. I’m not sure how I’ll get through life without her.

What would I like to say about Addy? Wow.. There’s so much. Mostly, I would like to say that Addy has truly been one of the very best things that has ever come into my life. She’s been my whole life for 8 years. Rarely a day went by that I didn’t tell her how much I loved her and how wonderful she was. I was so happy to know that she felt loved, and safe in our home. Addy was like a movie star around our home. When her and I went for walks, people would come out of the woodwork to look at her and pet her. Kids would go crazy over her and she loved them right back. Addy was always the first one outside when someone mentioned ride and the first one ready for bed. She was an excellent sleeper. =)

I loved Addy more than life and would have done anything to prevent her pain and suffering. She had the biggest heart I’ve ever known. All she wanted was love, and that’s what we gave her.

When Addy and I first moved in with my husband, he had a 40lb. dog named Chevy. Chevy ruled the roost and Addy allowed it. Chev passed away on 7/23/09. My husband wanted another dog but had said he just couldn’t have a big dog like Addy. He would like one because Addy was just great, but he takes his fur-babies to his shop every day and he just couldn’t do it. Next thing I know, we have our name in for another American Masttiff. On 11/7/09, Camaro came into our lives. Addy and Cammie loved each other. They played in the yard and slept together. It was truly a blessing. I feel that Cammie kept Addy young.

On 7/19/11, we found out that Addy had cancer. Her labored breathing wasn’t because she was getting older, it was because she had a large tumor in her chest making it hard for her to breath. We could do chemo but the Dr. thought she also had bone marrow cancer and chemo wouldn’t help that. We opted to give her Prednisone and a bronchodilator to help keep the tumor from getting bigger and to open her airways and help her breath. Once we got the diagnosis, it seemed that the disease took its toll. We did everything we could to make Addy comfortable, gave her whatever she wanted to eat and loved on her as much as possible.

On 7/29/11(one day after my birthday) Addy decided she was just too tired to go on.

I found this saying on a website and thought it really represented how I feel about Addy.. God rest her soul. I will forever love my Adalaide Marie.

“If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane,
I’d walk right up to Heaven and bring her home again.”

Addie and her owner Tanya

Sent: Monday, December 29, 2008
Subject: Re: Addy and I made it to the website!!!

I can send you hundreds of pictures.

But seriously, I have tons.. I have more pictures of Addy in a little less than six years than I do of my son in almost 23 years. I guess that’s sad but Addy’s always with me so she’s easy to photograph…

I’ll attach some now.

The first one and my very favorite is of her in the car on the way home from picking her up. It should be a postcard.

Trust me, if you want more, I have more!

Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008
Subject: Re: Addy and I made it to the website!!!

It was just Addy and I for three years and I couldn’t have asked for more. Still can’t.. She is absolutely one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I love her more than life.

I cried my eyes out when I read the “memory to Miles” story on your website.. I can’t imagine what I will be like if Addy goes before me.. I think about it alot.

Soon, we should have a fenced in yard and I will be putting my name in for another puppy.

Oh! Wanted to tell you.. In July I ordered a personalized license plate. It says, AM MSTFF. I also have a sticker in my window that says “If it’s not a Mastiff, it’s just a dog”.

I also have a used car coming just so I can tote Addy around. My daily driver has black leather seats and it’s just too hard to keep clean with Addy in it so I’m remedying the situation and getting her her own car. =)

I will be getting a personalized plate for that too.. I’m thinking PUP TAXI or PUP CHFFER, or something..

Some may think I’m obsessed. I think it’s just love.. lol

Sent: Saturday, December 20, 2008
Subject: Addy and I made it to the website!!!

I was just going through the website again, looking at all the babies (young or old, all babies) and see that Addy and I are on the website! Just wanted you to know that Addy is still with me and I love her more every single day. I love to hear her snore, I love to watch her sleep, I love it when she thinks she’s tough and play growls at me.. she goes after my feet, and hands.. I love her more than life. I’m amazed every day how much I love her to death!!! Tanya

The sleeping girl